youll be calling back

the new Elle magazine is just full of wonders and new trends for the 09.

i am exited for the nude dresses and the cropped t's.

i am currently obssesed with Lykke Li.

check her out on MYSPACE MUSIC.

her voice is angelic and soft.

her lyrics are artistic and poetic.

shes adorable.

so My ex boyfriend lives in Paris and his currently in L.A filming Christian Adiger for like a four day reality show.hoesntly i really dont know the final cut of it all but am sure we'll find out more about it before the premiere.

well yesterday he had the pleasure to meet Madonna.

well simply said this designer is creating three lines for the queen of pop,not only including clothes but also chocolates and other fab. treats.

so i am really exited for this.

he got lucky and got to keep the samples of the chocolate samples and other goodies.

and if it wasnt enough he got to keep the water bottle she drank in .

as soon as i get photos of the samples ill post them .

now i am playing dress up and heading at to MIAMI BEACH for a night with friends.

ciao bisous.

froid amour

i am tired of wishing.its obviously not working.
being a dreamer is fun for a while but not for long.
not when the man you love thinks that your crazy and tells you his not planning to go where you are.so keep dreaming dreamer of mine, oh dear Gretel...
when will you find a true human like you.
i thought when i found you it would turn off my fire the right way and make me feel reality is not that bad,but its getting worse.
i hate you more everyday knowing its the contrary of that.i love you so much...this is a no ordinary love..

catch19

theres no words.i guess i forgot how to talk or better yet type.

expess. but the truth is i dont feel like satisfying you.

indisions i come up with daily.

yea yea yea they say i want it

all.but i dont stop till i get.and those fucked up lessons give me hope.

well danm if i do danm if i dont.

how many times does it take for you to see that this shit is real.

i live in outer space.maybe i wont get the same results everyday.

you say i cant be with you but when you turn around my hope rises and i try to push my hand in yours.well yea thats the way we live.with illusion .

a fake perception.danm if i do danm if you do.

when i think of you looking at her....

i know i love you tooo selfishly.you know me.

yes.

no.

maybe.

those fucked up words.

hate.love.lust.you.

am lifted, am through.
i visited you. am dumb maybe at times numb .
but i wanna stay
.am naked seen by no one but you
youre drunk , i need it.reload.linger one.
we drink on and on.
place a place on a thing. then love untill we be. that is you and me.
lets rent a flat. lets swim in the soap.i wink you i need you.
i need to pee.hold on.
you wasted your times and then my heart you crushed.
cross the bridge, go to the goverment confess your crush.
but come back, dont stay gone.
stay clean i want you to need me.
bleed me. live me.linger one, my one.
my two.we drink the place down the last night chaos.
youre drunk,then love me untill we fall.
we be, you and me.

le her le too

this is how i feel today ---------------------------

to much cigarettes to much chai lattes.

to much weed.

to much you and them and me too.

i havent been exposed to this in a while,

i missed the constant laughing and the pain in my stomach.

we had cheese fries .

we swimed on top on buildings and the lights over the ocean were glorious.

what can i say, i want to swim.

bored.clueless.

on a scale , yea you are the end of me.

answer me, put in thought the motion of the day.

listen to your inner voice stop thinking twice.

please risk something,please, i want to see exitment.

honestly shut le door.

i kinda wanna hide.

i wanna have my cake and eat it too.

i want another chai latte.omg gretel stop.

i dont want to turn away but i really wanna go that way.

catch me if you can

bare me wine. bare me nude.

how long does it take to learn one too?

i dont know, but you know me sooo i think sometimes i do

i guess youll always get the same results if you dont derive from the cycle.

dont shed to many tears but when your sad enjoy it and draw it out.

le her le too.

everything in twos

everythingg does go in twos.

dont worry us too.

let it fall

didnt sleep. play dress up.drive in the dark and smoke my morning cigarette.
dry my eyes so you would know, dry my eyes so it wont show.but i know your near or maybe right behind me.let it fall.my chai latte fell and messed up my clean polish on my car.
presented my press release. the caffiine had me shook. the cold air got my goosebumps. let it fall.
i want Paris ,i want you.

stop nothing matters

we live a million miles away and we cant even go a day without talking.
we fight we scream,well i scream..
you dont get mad, you get mad you raise your voice and tell me i am crazy.
i say you have no consideration but you know me better than any other man.
you know i love you and you deny yours.
you cant even talk english sometimes and you need me to correct you.
when you want orange juice i get up, you hate sushi and make fun of me bc i eat it.
you turn the light of before time and expect me to sleep when you do.
you like to have sex after lunch and then run shirtless to get cigarettes.
you dont have coffee in the morning but drink dark rum in a coffee cup
and if heaven knew i would prefer you it would run up agaisnt you.
you like when i say fuck you but you dont like when i say God dammit.
you phone everyday and let me know where you landed.
i have 10 and counting numbers for you.
you are never in one place for long, i follow you around the world.
i can leave you and ill be back in one day.
you are a perfect dish and i dont forget how lucky i am.
you tell me am wrong when am wrong and hate to admit when i am right.
you teach me so much and make me laugh with passion.
oh when your gone...but youre soo much better than you know..

rapid time

seating here waiting for you will be like waiting for winter.
but i still really really love you,love is stronger than pride.
at this point i dont know if i should go or not .
and knowing you are taken already ,well it breaks my heart into pieces.
but i still really really love you .
love is stronger than pride.

tell him.

tell him.i miss him.i left him.but i still love him.lets not talk about the weather,but please dont move here. i cant keep going,i ran out of battery.the fuel is dead and has no heat.i dont visualize you anymore.i cant even think of you.i dont want to hear your name outloud.i dont want a minimal clue of you.just tell him.

the day before love

ringo STARR ,my favorite BEATLE

rain on me

there will never be another for me.
ok i really want a military styled jacket ,especially in red with gold bottoms.
and a black fedora will just add some edge,am down!!!





cut off parts of youre jeans displaying lace tights, another wonderful creation!

mais la vie sans toi.

mais la vie sans toi je sais pas. i fucking miss you already.
well its like this, i know i haven't seen you in a while but i haven't talked to you since yesterday!
i know youre busy and working on set! and i cant tell you how extremely proud i am of you!!!
i know you're "American phone" is working so...
well you're here in the same country as me quite incredible after knowing you were in a different time zone,culture,language.... you were in Paris.
this infamous place i would dream about when i was a child and discovered it was a real place, yea you're from there.
so sad to say but your like this lil fantasy i had created in my mind and now i find you .
you have meat and bones and breath through your smoke filled lungs.
wear black and drink endless amounts of rum.
you sit at a bar counter and demands while eating nuts.
sleeps in daylight and bosses ppl at night.
you are incredible you i cant wait to see you.
i cant lie you have been the inspiration for the past weeks
and hopefully will continue to inspire me.
i dont know if i told you guys but when i go to France i will stay in his home right outside of Paris which is like Kendall to the Miami metropolitan area.(about 30 minutes from Paris)
so i will be away from the crazy chaos and the long nights.
i have decided to look more into my street fashion photography and of course more over my writing. i think i will start organizing my writings and actually put them in a chronologist way.
for example, since i write based on my life situations or simply what motivates me and makes me feel happy sad, mad whatever the mood.
i will put all that together with different entries i have and create a book.
i hope to motivate ppl and let girls in general know that life is magical even when you're home alone dwelling over the past break up.
but more on that another time.
bisous

feb5

omygosh does she ever fail?
i truly love this gal!

17 modules

honey your scared.
but under that skin his a regular guy.
but this is the life this is the lowest
and this is love,this is love
walk by night smoke by midnight and coffee by day.
the city, oh no dont worry your not alone
dont be sketchy, dont kiss my underwear
smile? i cant bc i am a danm crazy brat.
move give me space i dont want to here your kissing sounds
but i am not the girl to feel furry
didnt mean to turn your eyes blurry
and dont worry i wont ever grow up
pass the hennesey please give back the extasy
all the things that matter to me dont matter to you
dont follow me when i have someone new
you obviously sold your mind and you didnt even know
this is the love and this is the law
this is the city brick streets local music local asshwoles
and local you local me
crazy to say but i know ,we know, i know ,you know and now we know
do you feel alright?do you feel allready?
i land at 8am pick me up, the drive is long put the window down
i know your not ready to live now are you ready to die?
you lost your soul and you didnt even know
this is love and this is life
the world where ppl talk and fight and smoke by night but dont worry youre not alone.

sour salty brain

what the fuck is wrong with people now-a-days?
who the hell knows....
lets have some smiles in our day lets converse with strangers even if they are fat
lets not honk after .5 seconds of seeing a green light.
wait the fuck up!
dont scream at the people you love
scream but say sorry ,right after.
dont take advantage of a good deal
try to loose and be satisfied
dont waste your time dreaming about unreal things
take shit into your hands and do it .
your parents love you .
i miss you i miss you, just say it.
i like you and i like it all.
love dancing and love reading.
enjoy the free air dont buy water,appreciate your fossit,all you need is ice.
cigarettes prevent alzimer.
dont kill me kill your self.
lets make out bc theres nothing to do.
ok this is not a third world country what the fuck is wrong with the economy?
i want to leave to europe better yet Paris.
i need that money now i need to pay my ticket
i need new skinny blk pants
i want a red plaid shirt i hate my blue one
i miss my red nails and these pink ones are to fucking pink.
je sais pas.
men are asshwoles
Otis is a different kind of species.
love is unknown i dont know it and you dont either
but we feel it.
words dont come easily but your actions are fucking outstanding.
i cant wait for next week, i might see your teeth.
and next month am all yours but you must share me with Paris

electric miami

source:rollofilm.com

denim

go further further.
put me in the mix.
denim yea its our best friend, ladies and gentlemen we are back in the 90's with a 70's vibe.

done

ive been down lately dont really know why.
just trying to live day by day.
i really need a job and i save to come up with money to go to Paris.

happy sunday

i hope everyone had a fun weekend !
am kind of pissed off bc i hosted a party at a new club and well the ownwer didnt feel like paying any of the workers, its crap! so supposedly his paying us today blahhh .
but anyway its superbowl sunday here in the states and i am home no partying for me.
tomorrow class and then jazid night club! open mike and my favorite french guy in the beach will come by !
how was your weekend?