Now!

NOW


i can say alot, i want everything. but someday.

if thinking of you and singing along with you isnt enough then what is i cant help it. i make plans and hope on them . i enjoy your presence and live on it .

i wish for you and debate myself and fight the urge.

thirsty is nothing compared to my mourne for you .

in you and out of you i was there i shared and compared and stared. i loved , hated and lived breathed sang and screamed laughed and cried all at once when you were near me .

nothing but entertainment i swear if our talks would talk they would deliver roses and lilis with desire to blossom.

i elavorate and think of you all the time and the thoughts are smiling and they are pure i fly when i see you and my heart becomes one with my mind nothing is like this i know you know we know.

but if i could tell you in one word it would be "now"

no more no less not later not before.

but now.

your hands your words your phrases your songs your looks your laughs your kindness your care your one in one and the one.

am sure , am sure .

but now is now and never more . i rethink and rephrase your words over and over. i should walk away from that the thought , the feeling the heat the admire the love and the fine line of insanity over that.

but now is now and i speak for you .

I dont know the difference

i dont know the difference

when i wake and stare out i see nothing i hear sounds and clappings.
i remember things days later and forget the real ones. the fake ones appear more real than the actual beings.
i woke this morning again in another world another bed with him on my side full of wine and cigarrettes tired of being tired. cold as can be and walking in the dark hearing the water running and the squikky floor, wood panels and suede window coverings i look outside and see nothing its day but i see night.i walk unconfortable with huge heels on my feet and shinny clothes strangers speak to me but i respond nothing, where did you go where did i go come outside rescue me please.
i hear your voice and live on that but a weekly thing wont help me survive am scared i swear but it doesnt show .
i smile i run and hike i sweat i laugh and cry but under my white pillows and your silky sheets. open the window and let me smoke. with the breeze in my face and the light house inback of me ,all white thoughs and genuine feelings . but maybe you called and maybe i didnt pick up but now i dont know the difference between the real or my dreams.

Come Over.

come over

hear the beat and move to it dont look back dont turn back we have waited to long and now you have no choice my love aint easy but it seems you deserve it iam trying to change the rules i see you want something good in your life, i got all that you want. and some search for a love as good as mine but it found you. the blessings and the laughter , ill teach you ill coach you. dont go fast take it easy, relax ill give you what ever. and dont worry love you dont have to be perfect just be willing to learn. all i expect is a bit in return.dont search and dont wine you have found a love as good as mine. common love come over, dont hesitate and rush take it slow and breath my air so joyeux , i just want to show you love. keep looking and running but you have reached your final step and mine is your final one.keep wishing for more i have iternal content of healthy satisfaction and a heaven like feel.bring it on to me, just come over love....

Love is Old Love is New

love is old, love is new
with things moving n grooving i become a moving text a number perhaps maybe a article ...?
i get interviewd daily with make up n with out

i start a new begining every step i take; nothing holds clarity
n if its sure then its not clear
but why should i weep n sorrow?
my happyness is busy with goals and future guides
c.ds videos & films all of what i am today
the fashion queen with no sleep
the white substance, the green trees
with lucy n the octopus under the sea
in the sky up high
or in the ocean down low
i am what u see what u desire in a woman
childish dreams with lolipops and nice silky sheets
the candle light dimmed with the capri in hand
the nice soft autum breeze n the dirty balcony
i love them dearly. we drink we smoke
we have sex
i hate him the next day, no calls no text all but ignore
so i walk n run from the thoughts of men
no feelings cold play
i am a bitch with no heart
bc love is old love, love is new

love is old & love aint you.