no need

black and white and stripes.

let me down where i started at

youre on that airplane right now.

perhaps sleeping perhaps thinking.

perhaps smoking in your head.

maybe eating or maybe screaming.

i cant be sure why its been so hard to let go and you have not let me.

i tried yesterday i tried last week.

i try daily and i cant get no where.

you dont let me.

if you dont love me say ciao,go away.

go all the way and step out for ever.

its you that doesnt admit that i am needed in your life.

the one that listens,doesnt get mad at youre cruel ways.

teaches you things and learns with passion.

its been done its been said.

youre flying back to Paris and i stay here.

till next time.

you got that job offer in L.A and i hoped for our relationship to grow.

you dared to ask if i knew girls there.

things like that i cant get.

i wont get, i wont tolerate.

am done am out

no thunder in my heart for you

this is cutting to the edge

and its fast maybe too suddendly but i have been hanging on and its to much.

put me down where i started out before i met you before we lived together

before we drank before i wouldnt let you in youre own club.

before i worked for youre dad.

before i moved in youre hotel and before i asked for a cigarette.

source:victor my friend

mon karl

does anybody know how much i want this bag?

common its Karl's face and his signature shades..
pffttt
perfect.

cosa tan mia

cuando nadie me ve.
puedo ser o no ser.
aveses me escondo tras puertas abiertas.
porque es tan dificil sentir como siento.
como siento es tan dificil.
aveses soy tuya y aveses de nadie.
no darte la vida entera solo esos momentos.
cuando nadie me ve puedo ser o no ser.
tes escribo de de mis propia existancia.
ay cosa muy tuya que yo no conprendo
ay cosas tan mia pero es que yo no las veo.
no enciende las luces que tengo desnuo del alma y mi cuerpo.
cuando nadie me ve puedo ser o no ser.
cuando nadie me ve no se me limita le piel.

source:

-i love fake.

-Nina pastori

still down for me??

today.
blah...............
i have this thing over me not really something to be enjoyed.
more like a negative vibe with no hopes of turning positive.
the only good news i recieved today is that my grandmother is coming to visit from Cuba.
which is not the easiest task.
am over school.
am over life.
the guy i liked about a month ago decided that now is a good time to jump into my life.
especially calling me to ask if his going to see me at jazid (a night club i used to work in on mondays) which i dont anymore.
men are so dumb sometimes.
then blows up my phone at 5 in the morning with his danm french accent which i love.
the thing is he reminds me sooooooo much of my ex boy and honestly its not a good idea to have the double of your ex.
soooo what to do what to do???
am tired of the subject of love and men.


this amazing photo is Alice Dellal .
she looks so cool here .
the color of her top her tattoos her hair .
just her.

source:

-oyster magazine

-rack and ruin

what they already know

we bout to linger on.
we drink the fatal drop.
then love until we bleed.
&.
then fall apart in parts.
-lykke li.

thorns in my brain

today=deppression.
ex boyfriends are exes! they are meant to be gone!
why isnt mine gone!
i have tried but no it just doesnt work.
i wish he didnt talk to me anymore.
for what>
i dont want to hear his issues with woman and that he cant get anything better than me.
and then when i say well.. maybe,,
his like no .
pfft waste of time.
p.s i want all thats on top

youll be calling back

the new Elle magazine is just full of wonders and new trends for the 09.

i am exited for the nude dresses and the cropped t's.

i am currently obssesed with Lykke Li.

check her out on MYSPACE MUSIC.

her voice is angelic and soft.

her lyrics are artistic and poetic.

shes adorable.

so My ex boyfriend lives in Paris and his currently in L.A filming Christian Adiger for like a four day reality show.hoesntly i really dont know the final cut of it all but am sure we'll find out more about it before the premiere.

well yesterday he had the pleasure to meet Madonna.

well simply said this designer is creating three lines for the queen of pop,not only including clothes but also chocolates and other fab. treats.

so i am really exited for this.

he got lucky and got to keep the samples of the chocolate samples and other goodies.

and if it wasnt enough he got to keep the water bottle she drank in .

as soon as i get photos of the samples ill post them .

now i am playing dress up and heading at to MIAMI BEACH for a night with friends.

ciao bisous.

froid amour

i am tired of wishing.its obviously not working.
being a dreamer is fun for a while but not for long.
not when the man you love thinks that your crazy and tells you his not planning to go where you are.so keep dreaming dreamer of mine, oh dear Gretel...
when will you find a true human like you.
i thought when i found you it would turn off my fire the right way and make me feel reality is not that bad,but its getting worse.
i hate you more everyday knowing its the contrary of that.i love you so much...this is a no ordinary love..

catch19

theres no words.i guess i forgot how to talk or better yet type.

expess. but the truth is i dont feel like satisfying you.

indisions i come up with daily.

yea yea yea they say i want it

all.but i dont stop till i get.and those fucked up lessons give me hope.

well danm if i do danm if i dont.

how many times does it take for you to see that this shit is real.

i live in outer space.maybe i wont get the same results everyday.

you say i cant be with you but when you turn around my hope rises and i try to push my hand in yours.well yea thats the way we live.with illusion .

a fake perception.danm if i do danm if you do.

when i think of you looking at her....

i know i love you tooo selfishly.you know me.

yes.

no.

maybe.

those fucked up words.

hate.love.lust.you.

am lifted, am through.
i visited you. am dumb maybe at times numb .
but i wanna stay
.am naked seen by no one but you
youre drunk , i need it.reload.linger one.
we drink on and on.
place a place on a thing. then love untill we be. that is you and me.
lets rent a flat. lets swim in the soap.i wink you i need you.
i need to pee.hold on.
you wasted your times and then my heart you crushed.
cross the bridge, go to the goverment confess your crush.
but come back, dont stay gone.
stay clean i want you to need me.
bleed me. live me.linger one, my one.
my two.we drink the place down the last night chaos.
youre drunk,then love me untill we fall.
we be, you and me.

le her le too

this is how i feel today ---------------------------

to much cigarettes to much chai lattes.

to much weed.

to much you and them and me too.

i havent been exposed to this in a while,

i missed the constant laughing and the pain in my stomach.

we had cheese fries .

we swimed on top on buildings and the lights over the ocean were glorious.

what can i say, i want to swim.

bored.clueless.

on a scale , yea you are the end of me.

answer me, put in thought the motion of the day.

listen to your inner voice stop thinking twice.

please risk something,please, i want to see exitment.

honestly shut le door.

i kinda wanna hide.

i wanna have my cake and eat it too.

i want another chai latte.omg gretel stop.

i dont want to turn away but i really wanna go that way.

catch me if you can

bare me wine. bare me nude.

how long does it take to learn one too?

i dont know, but you know me sooo i think sometimes i do

i guess youll always get the same results if you dont derive from the cycle.

dont shed to many tears but when your sad enjoy it and draw it out.

le her le too.

everything in twos

everythingg does go in twos.

dont worry us too.

let it fall

didnt sleep. play dress up.drive in the dark and smoke my morning cigarette.
dry my eyes so you would know, dry my eyes so it wont show.but i know your near or maybe right behind me.let it fall.my chai latte fell and messed up my clean polish on my car.
presented my press release. the caffiine had me shook. the cold air got my goosebumps. let it fall.
i want Paris ,i want you.

stop nothing matters

we live a million miles away and we cant even go a day without talking.
we fight we scream,well i scream..
you dont get mad, you get mad you raise your voice and tell me i am crazy.
i say you have no consideration but you know me better than any other man.
you know i love you and you deny yours.
you cant even talk english sometimes and you need me to correct you.
when you want orange juice i get up, you hate sushi and make fun of me bc i eat it.
you turn the light of before time and expect me to sleep when you do.
you like to have sex after lunch and then run shirtless to get cigarettes.
you dont have coffee in the morning but drink dark rum in a coffee cup
and if heaven knew i would prefer you it would run up agaisnt you.
you like when i say fuck you but you dont like when i say God dammit.
you phone everyday and let me know where you landed.
i have 10 and counting numbers for you.
you are never in one place for long, i follow you around the world.
i can leave you and ill be back in one day.
you are a perfect dish and i dont forget how lucky i am.
you tell me am wrong when am wrong and hate to admit when i am right.
you teach me so much and make me laugh with passion.
oh when your gone...but youre soo much better than you know..

rapid time

seating here waiting for you will be like waiting for winter.
but i still really really love you,love is stronger than pride.
at this point i dont know if i should go or not .
and knowing you are taken already ,well it breaks my heart into pieces.
but i still really really love you .
love is stronger than pride.

tell him.

tell him.i miss him.i left him.but i still love him.lets not talk about the weather,but please dont move here. i cant keep going,i ran out of battery.the fuel is dead and has no heat.i dont visualize you anymore.i cant even think of you.i dont want to hear your name outloud.i dont want a minimal clue of you.just tell him.

the day before love

ringo STARR ,my favorite BEATLE